misses

i realised how much has changed
how fast things have changed.
went through my mind, pace slow yet fast also, all at the same time.
memories, drip off like that bit by bit.
maybe that's how life works, filled with regrets, letting them stay
and letting them hurt you all at one time.

pain. maybe.
just looked through so much. maybe cos' i've not access to my desktop pc for so long that when i do, i just start looking at all the photographs taken, one by one.

i miss 31. i miss our nonsense. i miss the celebrations. i miss everything even peer tutoring though it was so hard to get pass every lesson. i miss our nonsense during peer-tutoring. i miss rushing to catch dark knight as a class together. there's so much that i miss and so much is there to remember. i miss our great wall of china during econs. i miss all these memories.

i looked through OCIP. the kids, the washing of the darn oily plates, the tedious teaching (since half the class don't exactly listen. hahahaha) and even teaching them the claps. their tears, their love and their sincerity. i would miss OCIP 2008; these 6 days filled up so much of my memories in jc. the team, the laugher, the night skies. how cold it was during the night but a group of us still went star gazing and attempted to count the number of shooting stars that night. someone counted 8; i saw 1 only. it was beautiful but i didnt have the time to make a wish.

i found the CSSP photos at sentosa, by coincidence. looked through them one by one. foreign yet familiar still. a memory fading away, bit by bit, drop by drop.

maybe its time to move on. maybe its time to learn how to let go again. maybe i would feel better not thinking about it. maybes and maybes.