Possibilities

maybe it's so hard to walk through those doors.

so really difficult to believe

and so tough to wanna have faith.

tugged my heart strings one by one.

and bit by bit, everything starts to fall apart

maybe i ain't exactly strong enough yet

to deal with it, casually and suavely.

so it's so difficult to be nonchalent

when part of you is somehow affected.

maybe it's hard to turn a blind eye

or a deaf ear to things.

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went past those familiar gates

those familiar corridors

maybe it's those beautiful memories that hurt you the most

ironically speaking since they

they should have left an impact so deep

that it's essentially so emotionally challenging to move on

maybe thats why leaving jc didnt hurt as hard and as much

as moving from sec school.

but these remains the past. and goodbye from here.

amazing race is brillant :D
totally like tammy and victor! the only asians man.
and 'the pianist' is really great, minus the turmoil and gore.
plus today's calls were one of the better ones out of all the other days. :)

hope these would continue man. aja aja fighting! :D

BELIEF

maybe goodbyes are just meant to be

maybe we are meant to say goodbye to each other

or maybe we would just walk out of each other's lives

without even having to say goodbye

without even having to shed a tear

maybe many things were meant to be.

or maybe many things are just there to fool you upside down,

left right center

inside out.

or maybe it's just this driving force that pushes us to move in

whatever way that it wants us to.

or maybe, simply to put it,

we've to learn how to say goodbye

if we were to say hello in the first place.

.

maybe you walked out of my life. maybe you didnt. but for this sudden moment, it didn't exactly matter anymore. cos' i've decided that part of your existence has ceased to be part of the current me now; it has now become part of my memory only.

B-O-R-E-D!


maybe i should jus take up more OT next time. hahahas.



and i really detest exams. cos' they would stir this rebellious streak/thing in me to do anything but prepare for it. i think it jus surfaces a simple conclusion: i'm not made out for exams.

HAHS.

EXISTENCE

i realise that for many different things in life, the minute that you pass it, there isn't any way where by you can turn back and reach for it. it ain't even possible for you to turn around cos' there's what life is about- to make you move forward and anywhere but backwards.

maybe that's the beauty of this perspective of life. maybe a lot of times we are told to go with your hearts and not let any other opinions/comments waver your decision.

maybe i've lost that much. or maybe i've gain it back in another way still. or maybe it's just me living in self delusion.

many walk in and out of your life. but not all leave an impact that you would remember and how their actions would never be forgotten as they are deeply imprinted in your memory bank. many left deep and painful ones, unknowingly while others left pretty comforting ones in you. some would just step into your heart for a while, give it a little warmth and then walk out of your life permanently. we just have different reasons for our own existence.

and maybe at the end of the day, we would just end up as lonely souls. leaving this world the way we entered it- all alone. maybe departing ain't really so scary at all. it's the things that you leave behind that makes everything seems sombre.

maybe these are the bits and pieces that make up life.

dangs. trilala. dangs. trihoho. toodles.

HEAVEN

i never know how these emotions can just pour like a waterfall, soaking me to the core and temporary depriving me of any possible happiness.

i hope the angels would be there to love her, sing for her and embrace her with happiness. i hope that she would find eternal joy and peace.


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sunday. february the 8th. first week of february. the year 2009.

1 month and 1 week has past pretty much like that. to that, only thing i've to say is the cliche 'time flies'. back to the 'onboard' period tomorrow just that we would all be handling 'one-man-show' now, no longer working in pairs already.

time has been spent pretty fulfilling these days.
you take your own time to breathe
you have your own space to do whatever you want
you have time to catch up
you have no one to breathe down behind your neck.
you have time to day dream and dream of all the beautiful possibilities.

i like that kinda feeling.

oh well. in any case, i'm so glad that i've found breaking dawn. YAYS. :D
and benjaminbuttons is really really good. A little long and slightly dry at the beginning initially but when brad pitt appears (young and suave), he takes your breath away.

a should watch! :D

♥

♥


hahaha. i'm in love with that cute symbol up there. but i think the one at facebook looks cuter tho it seemed all the same.

wednesday already. looking forward to the end of the week. looking forward to break. really really need it. and onboard today is pretty hiong in the sense that perhaps, we ain't very used to it yet. i wonder how things are gonna be from next week onwards when it would be a one-man-show from monday onwards. hope that i won't start pulling all my hair out.

i think managing work and individual life SEPARATELY is all that is possible now. it's tough actually especially when your morn is spoilt totally with nasty calls.

just gotta learn how to manage life as it is i guess.

toodles!

P.S i'm angry i missed last night's SYTYCD. ): shoots! cos' i thought the show was today and wah piangs danggggs! i missed that episode. WALAOOOO. saded.

say that i'm resigned. say that i've changed. but does it really matter who i've become now to you cos' all along, i've been perceived in that ugly hideous way by you.


my 120th post. goodnights.

finding scores by joe hisaishi. better find it soooon cos' the song is really niceeee and it seems easy to play also.

i'm totally pitch-salah so i cant go by ong's way and stare into the youtube video hoping to memorise the notes. it is akin to asking a frog to fly. why weird description of frog i've no idea. it's the time i conclude. she played ponyo by the cliff and i really really wanna kowtow to her.

hahahaha! just find it funny how she played the first part of secret and i continued the second part. love that song jus that the director of the house (aka my dear mum) always claim it's noisy.

and here's a letter to plead with her. like wow what the fish difference it would make to convince her.

Dear Sir/Mdm,

This note is written to request to keep hammy in the house. I promise to take care and love hammy with all my heart, setting aside my rest days for it definitely. I hope you would trust that I would take ample care of it and as to where hammy shall sleep in, please be reassured that all of such would be well taken of. hammy definitely will not be kept out of the house due to the possibility of wild cats creeping in.

Please consider my application and I hope it would be a positive reply that you get back to me with. The vice director (aka my dad) has agreed to my request so I hope you would to.

Thank you.

Yours Sincerely,
your employee (with love)



i'm jus plain bored. goodnight. i shall bug ong for spirited away scores. yays.


P.S can you imagine someone whom you like playing a piano duet with you? i cant cos' i would prolly faint on the spot when that happens. PLUS this weird thought strike my brain during the customer care training. it's the time i conclude. 1.30am.

whees. that's why i love the weekends.

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corpse bride duet by danny elfman. hearts it.