enjoy listening to songs by david archuleta and david cook!
cheeers totally.
on a side note, j's coming out sooon. gonna make him treat and have yet to buy a beanie for him also. shalln't care. but the dress that xin bought was really pretty. cheers to that also. hopefully the ns guys do survive!
may's coming soon. freaky. uni's starting soon too. even more freaky. i'm freaking out so much really. freaky.
cheers to beauty. cheers to happiness. and cheeers to life.
it's all about expectations. it's so easy to feel happy, if we don't expect so much of ourselves, or if we see things in that less hard-up way. maybe that's the beauty of it, to find happiness in simplicity cos' complexity is just annoying the shit outta us most of the time. to grow and to learn that setting standards that we could cope with tend to make us happier.
i wanna feel free. i wanna get happiness out of this. i wanna this dream to last forever.
Sunday 26 April 2009
Saturday 25 April 2009
my rants. my memories.
wanna blog out everything that i rmb now lest it slipped my mind. memories seemed to be fading at an increasing speed so horrifying that shock me somehow.
mr hanny is outta ns. so i asked him whether did he go for star gazing also. (damn bloody random i know) thats the problem when i mean that all my memory cells are all dying apparently. tsk. he did also. and i saw the skull picture and some words in the nightsky. with all that stars and my fuzzy eyesight and wet hair and in a very sleep mode. slept only at 4am during the last night i remember, folding stuff for my kids and packing all the presents.
and yes, i remembered playing husband and wife also with edmund as my teaching partner and how we had to take care of m2/3. how we had to run along with them and how we had to handle all of them especially when they get so violent while playing. and i remember this little girl whose name i've forgotten and during night tuition, how we would be learning thai from them and they learning english from us.
how their tears erupt from their tear sacs when they heard we were leaving. its only 6 days so i cant imagine if we did stay on for that full 15 days.
how they hugged us and cried for our departure.
most funny memory was the presentation when we dance, we sing and we (not steal things like duh. ain't advertising for jason mraz) do retarded things :)
ching-chong and the retarded in-out dance. and the elephant dance even.
i wont forget hong nam yu tee nai.
the whole ocip was ranting hong nam yu tee nai. cheers to that.
suey/lor mak mak.
reminisces, a lot.
a part fading, a part wanting it to stay.
i'm so glad that a gold has been maintained for the past 2 years! it's really really heartening. and if only, if only that gold has been ours years back. always a regret but i'm glad i was part of that 05-06 orchestra which has given me so much memories. cheers to tian shan sheng hui and xing kong. and cheers to that gold :D
mr hanny is outta ns. so i asked him whether did he go for star gazing also. (damn bloody random i know) thats the problem when i mean that all my memory cells are all dying apparently. tsk. he did also. and i saw the skull picture and some words in the nightsky. with all that stars and my fuzzy eyesight and wet hair and in a very sleep mode. slept only at 4am during the last night i remember, folding stuff for my kids and packing all the presents.
and yes, i remembered playing husband and wife also with edmund as my teaching partner and how we had to take care of m2/3. how we had to run along with them and how we had to handle all of them especially when they get so violent while playing. and i remember this little girl whose name i've forgotten and during night tuition, how we would be learning thai from them and they learning english from us.
how their tears erupt from their tear sacs when they heard we were leaving. its only 6 days so i cant imagine if we did stay on for that full 15 days.
how they hugged us and cried for our departure.
most funny memory was the presentation when we dance, we sing and we (not steal things like duh. ain't advertising for jason mraz) do retarded things :)
ching-chong and the retarded in-out dance. and the elephant dance even.
i wont forget hong nam yu tee nai.
the whole ocip was ranting hong nam yu tee nai. cheers to that.
suey/lor mak mak.
reminisces, a lot.
a part fading, a part wanting it to stay.
i'm so glad that a gold has been maintained for the past 2 years! it's really really heartening. and if only, if only that gold has been ours years back. always a regret but i'm glad i was part of that 05-06 orchestra which has given me so much memories. cheers to tian shan sheng hui and xing kong. and cheers to that gold :D
Monday 20 April 2009
misses
i realised how much has changed
how fast things have changed.
went through my mind, pace slow yet fast also, all at the same time.
memories, drip off like that bit by bit.
maybe that's how life works, filled with regrets, letting them stay
and letting them hurt you all at one time.
pain. maybe.
just looked through so much. maybe cos' i've not access to my desktop pc for so long that when i do, i just start looking at all the photographs taken, one by one.
i miss 31. i miss our nonsense. i miss the celebrations. i miss everything even peer tutoring though it was so hard to get pass every lesson. i miss our nonsense during peer-tutoring. i miss rushing to catch dark knight as a class together. there's so much that i miss and so much is there to remember. i miss our great wall of china during econs. i miss all these memories.
i looked through OCIP. the kids, the washing of the darn oily plates, the tedious teaching (since half the class don't exactly listen. hahahaha) and even teaching them the claps. their tears, their love and their sincerity. i would miss OCIP 2008; these 6 days filled up so much of my memories in jc. the team, the laugher, the night skies. how cold it was during the night but a group of us still went star gazing and attempted to count the number of shooting stars that night. someone counted 8; i saw 1 only. it was beautiful but i didnt have the time to make a wish.
i found the CSSP photos at sentosa, by coincidence. looked through them one by one. foreign yet familiar still. a memory fading away, bit by bit, drop by drop.
maybe its time to move on. maybe its time to learn how to let go again. maybe i would feel better not thinking about it. maybes and maybes.
how fast things have changed.
went through my mind, pace slow yet fast also, all at the same time.
memories, drip off like that bit by bit.
maybe that's how life works, filled with regrets, letting them stay
and letting them hurt you all at one time.
pain. maybe.
just looked through so much. maybe cos' i've not access to my desktop pc for so long that when i do, i just start looking at all the photographs taken, one by one.
i miss 31. i miss our nonsense. i miss the celebrations. i miss everything even peer tutoring though it was so hard to get pass every lesson. i miss our nonsense during peer-tutoring. i miss rushing to catch dark knight as a class together. there's so much that i miss and so much is there to remember. i miss our great wall of china during econs. i miss all these memories.
i looked through OCIP. the kids, the washing of the darn oily plates, the tedious teaching (since half the class don't exactly listen. hahahaha) and even teaching them the claps. their tears, their love and their sincerity. i would miss OCIP 2008; these 6 days filled up so much of my memories in jc. the team, the laugher, the night skies. how cold it was during the night but a group of us still went star gazing and attempted to count the number of shooting stars that night. someone counted 8; i saw 1 only. it was beautiful but i didnt have the time to make a wish.
i found the CSSP photos at sentosa, by coincidence. looked through them one by one. foreign yet familiar still. a memory fading away, bit by bit, drop by drop.
maybe its time to move on. maybe its time to learn how to let go again. maybe i would feel better not thinking about it. maybes and maybes.
Wednesday 15 April 2009
Friday 10 April 2009
ten years down the road
10 years down the road. It really is funny how we would be saying that when we are all much younger, maybe during the p6 PSLE days I do remember vividly.
7 years has past. So 10 years wasn't very long either. Maybe it was how life proceeded that made it seemed a little shorter. What would hold in the future 10 years from now too?
Moving on. Proceeding with courage. Entering yet leaving all at the same time. Disappearing. Or maybe, gradually diminishing so slowly that you would never ever sense its presence fading. So thats how leaving this world is all about. Or maybe it never was there to make departure a big bang. Or maybe there's so much more worth in your life cos' you only have just this once. Pass this once and you can't exactly be looking back at all. No chance at all.
Dreams, ambitions, hopes, future, family, relationships. Every single thing. Probably change and it would be another path taken altogether. A tad cliche but really, the only thing constant in this world is change.
I don't expect every single thing to be brillant. I don't expect the whole world to slow down for me either. I only expect less darkness; i need at least a guilding light in my life.
David Archuleta- A Little Too Not Over You
7 years has past. So 10 years wasn't very long either. Maybe it was how life proceeded that made it seemed a little shorter. What would hold in the future 10 years from now too?
Moving on. Proceeding with courage. Entering yet leaving all at the same time. Disappearing. Or maybe, gradually diminishing so slowly that you would never ever sense its presence fading. So thats how leaving this world is all about. Or maybe it never was there to make departure a big bang. Or maybe there's so much more worth in your life cos' you only have just this once. Pass this once and you can't exactly be looking back at all. No chance at all.
Dreams, ambitions, hopes, future, family, relationships. Every single thing. Probably change and it would be another path taken altogether. A tad cliche but really, the only thing constant in this world is change.
I don't expect every single thing to be brillant. I don't expect the whole world to slow down for me either. I only expect less darkness; i need at least a guilding light in my life.
David Archuleta- A Little Too Not Over You
Monday 6 April 2009
Sunday 5 April 2009
i decided to close my eyes, make a dash for it. i never ran so much before ever since school ended. my leg hurts, my train of thoughts got disrupted and i wonder why i felt so much pain. physically or emotionally? it never did cross my mind to make a clear distinction.
everything is gonna return to status quo. i'm relieved that the very least, i could go back. how things are gonna turn out, i've no idea.
AND i'm starting to peeeel. not much to rant about but after hurting for an entire week, i'm glad that at least those dead skin cant be gotten rid of cos' its not only hideous, it hurts darn loads. and talking about gory scenes, SHINJUKU INCIDENT almost made me throw up. gross to the core. i should have expected it to be gory but yah, it didn't cross my mind that it would so vomit-inducing.
i swear the pasta that i had for dinner almost came out of my mouth really.
but mall cop was funnny. i swear i laugh like there's no tomorrow. i love comedies tons. make me feel like watching HANDSOME SUIT. i think it would be highly retarded but yes, paying for cheap thrill and lameness.
FUNNY THING.
if you're in a not-so-pleasant mood, go catch it for its retardedness.
hoorays.
everything is gonna return to status quo. i'm relieved that the very least, i could go back. how things are gonna turn out, i've no idea.
AND i'm starting to peeeel. not much to rant about but after hurting for an entire week, i'm glad that at least those dead skin cant be gotten rid of cos' its not only hideous, it hurts darn loads. and talking about gory scenes, SHINJUKU INCIDENT almost made me throw up. gross to the core. i should have expected it to be gory but yah, it didn't cross my mind that it would so vomit-inducing.
i swear the pasta that i had for dinner almost came out of my mouth really.
but mall cop was funnny. i swear i laugh like there's no tomorrow. i love comedies tons. make me feel like watching HANDSOME SUIT. i think it would be highly retarded but yes, paying for cheap thrill and lameness.
FUNNY THING.
if you're in a not-so-pleasant mood, go catch it for its retardedness.
hoorays.
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